Are you failing or falling into alignment?

FYI, you are listening to a nursing school dropout, a fashion merchandising quitter, and a sewing class dropout.

Is it failure or a readjustment?

Now at 35, I can say it’s a readjustment. Everything in life is a readjustment.

I often reflect on my life and where I’ve been, and where I want to go. Looking back, would 16-year-old me be proud of 35-year-old me? Eh, not really. 16-year-old me wanted me married with children and a thriving career. Is the career thriving? Not really. I feel like when I am on Instagram and people pose this question, and everyone’s answer is, yes, it is a lie. We have to be honest and acknowledge we all had unrealistic expectations about adulthood as teenagers.

Is 35-year-old me proud of me? Absolutely. In my teens and 20s, it was all about making moves and pushing forward until I got to the finish line. Now, I realize things take time to bloom, and it’s not about speed; it’s about consistency and feeling comfortable, refinement, and redirection when needed. Keep showing up, and things will work in your favor.

All experiences are not consistent on your journey. As previously mentioned, I am a nursing school dropout. Am I currently working in the medical field? Nope. What am I using from my previous experiences? Show up even when you don’t want to; progress takes time, and it’s happening even when you feel like it is not.

Working a production-based job is nothing like college. You can be amazing and then one bad thing happens, and your stats are shot for the rest of the year. In my 20s, this would devastate me and unmotivate me from continuing. Presently, I have built up my resiliency, and setbacks are not endings but an invitation to keep going.

How shame stops you in your tracks

The worst thing you can do when you feel shame is hide. This world is so big and full of so much commotion; whatever is going on with you does not matter. At least not as much as you think. We are all going through changes and challenges, even though we all wear them differently. I cried today due to shame. This feeling holds so much power and prevents so much progress in your life.

Shame is what keeps you up at night; it is what makes you second-guess yourself. This simple feeling stalls out so much progress.

How to progress forward through it all

Keep moving forward and don’t look back. In the end, it all counts, and no time is ever wasted. Always remember, no one has a better life than the one that you can create for yourself.

Want more? Check out my previous post: https://staygoldensaniha.com/2025/09/08/my-12th-house-profection-year-at-35/